Monday, 2 August 2010

Music Makes Me...Feel...

Music is one of a very few things that I can get completely lost in without any concept of time or space or reality... I enjoy classical, blues, soul, 'old skool' r'n'b, a little soft rock, a dash of rap & country...but above all else, my heart is sold on jazz...bring out the sax, some drums and base and we are good to go in book! I must admit I am a big fan of Motown and the really way back then musicians like Billie Holiday, Nat King Cole and Etta James (and Dolly P & Kenny R) too! I love old songs generally, mainly because they had meaning and no sex, violence, negative speech, swearing or naked women in their music videos...something about a lack of those things is simply appealing to me...I must admit at this point that I am far from being an authority on music, I am simply an ignorant lover of it and at best an amateur singer (very amateur!!!). So this post seeks not to pour out great wisdom about music but to share a piece of my soul...

The following series of images are to give the feel of live music
 which is probably the very best way to hear music! Enjoy...

Every major event in my life has a song that defines the time, from a song called 'Sold Out for Jesus' that marked my initial salvation experience as a child, through Boys to men's 'End of the road' that marked my cross over from child to teenager in a big way...first crush..., Baby Face's 'Every time I close my eyes' - the song that defined my 'first love' relationship and that we picked to be 'our song' (smile...good times) and his song, 'nobody knows it but me, Brian McKnight's 'Anytime',Case's 'Missing you' have been my mourning over 'break up's  songs. Right the way through life's experiences to the point when I returned to God after a long detour through my own battles of identity and other conflicting emotions to 'Jesus lover of my soul', 'purify my heart' and 'draw me close' which speak of my love affair with my God and how much I need Him and am humbled that he would send His son to  die for me to absolve me of my own sin...Through various songs I have drawn closer to God and found comfort through the worst times of my life, (more so it has to be said than the dongs and artists I first mentioned...do yourself a favour and stay away from sad love songs when you break up with someone you love, these only seek to add salt to the wound no matter how long its been since they left...try a song that will bring you peace and healing instead, I recommend 'I surrender all' or 'Draw me close Jesus'...). 



The last year whilst I have been unwell and off work at home with the walls and all the odd things that happen during the day in the neighbourhood when you are at work... It has been hard to say the least, adjusting my life to work round a condition instead of forcing my body to play ball like I always used to...This level of rebellion by my members signified that some things were very horribly wrong and after about three months of fighting it and trying to force normality back into my life, I realised that I had to just let go and let my body heal... This I must admit was a depressing time in my life and on more than one occasion I all but cracked up under the pressure, my faith got super stretched and tested and my resolve was shaken...My body literally 'downed tools' like a disgruntled postal worker and went on strike! So in that time I had to learn to comfort myself in the Lord and hold fast to the promises of God and you guessed it! Music had a huge part to play in that process. When I couldn't pray I sang to God and when I couldn't lift my head let along read my bible, music soothed me and ministered to me through it. Favourites I can pick on in particular right now are, a song I was give by my friend Kane called, 'Healing', a song from church called 'Draw me close [Jesus]', some Sunday school songs (I teach Sunday School) 'Our God is a great big God' & 'God's not dead' (sung by children, these songs are therapy! Trust me!!). Some other songs that helped me not to run away from God include Casting Crowns's , 'Who Am I', Lisa McClendon across the board and various others depending on mood but all in all, music was there as a means of communication with God and people when words failed me and I didn't feel I could anymore and through the music I was able to touch heaven where my help came from...



A very special thanks to Nathaniel Cole (keyboard), Kane Dick (drums) and Joan Agwuna (mic) from the Potter's House Church, Reading for being kind enough to pose for this series of images.
Whilst I'm not particularly gifted in music (I don't play an instrument at all to save my life!!!) I can just about carry a tune in a bucket and therefore have been privileged to minister in song in churches during the course of my life thus far. I have also written a couple of songs, one of those things that are truly a gift and not naturally one of mine either so I had to work hard at it and do not do too badly...
Me singing @ church

I believe that music presented to God or about God or for God in relation to spreading the gospel is the most sacred and captivating of all music. I have never felt more alive or at peace than when I am singing a song from my heart to God's ear and feeling the Holy Spirit move in that exchange...Music has is and will always be a huge part of who I am and how I express and share my faith and this makes it all the more special to me...

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